Friday, January 14, 2005

A twist

So last night I was hanging out with Elizabeth, we watched Troy and talked. I had a lot of fun, I really enjoy my time with her. I think I might have a future with her. That seems to be the way God is leading me, but slowly. I'm patient this time around. I'll wait as long as I need to, and if nothing happens then that's alright too. Ok, no it's not alright, but it wouldn't suck too badly.

God please lead me.

Wednesday, January 12, 2005

New car

So I picked up a car yesterday, a '97 Civic. I didn't get a chance to finish the paperwork, so I need to go down to the dealership today and do that.

It's snowing again, they're expecting four to five inches in some places, which sucks because I bought a manual, and I don't know how to drive one yet, so my parents are "letting" me use their car, which needs to get the brakes fixed. Oh well, I'll be working on that this afternoon anyway.

Friday, January 07, 2005

Time to knuckle down

Now that I've taken nearly two months of from writing, it's time to get back into the swing. Unfortunately, I still can't think, so instead of working on one of my projects, I'm going to "rant" on my blog. (That is, after all, why I started this thing.)

So, next week I'm going to go get a "new" car, probably a certified preowned Civic. That's exciting, but I don't know if I'm working enough hours to be able to afford it. I'm sure I'm over-estimating the cost, and I am get more hours at work, so we'll see.

In my last post I told you I had a potential project in the works; I'm probably going to become the manager for my friend Elizabeth. She wants to be a professional singer, so I'm going to see if I can help her get on the road. Ever since I heard her sing 4 1/2 years ago, I knew she had a future as a performer. She also has an incredible heart for other. I love how much she cares for others, how she wants to minister to those around her.

I'm sure this sounds like a rather simple arangement, now here's where it starts to complicate; when I first started to get to know Elizabeth, I started getting a "crush" on her. She didn't like me "that way" which was hard, but we still grew as friends (groovey, thumbs up). This "I like you, but you don't like me" thing went on for a little over three years, when it got so bad that we finally decided it had to end. That was the end of the friendship for nearly eight months.

Now, a little over a year since we said goodbye, I found out that Elizabeth likes me. Funny, huh? We both thought so too, becuase I'm not ready for a relationship. That's not to say I don't like her, I'm just not at a place in my life where it can work. I know, if we're both willing to try, anything can work, but I want to make sure I'm pointed in the direction God wants me to go in before I start including others that deeply in my life. I need to make sure that God is the center of my life to such a degree that I'll never lose focus on him.

But at the same time, I know Elizabeth would always encourage me spiritually. I guess the biggest thing is I like where our friendship is now. They say, "Why ruin a good thing." But I don't consider this a "good" thing, this is great. Our friendship, the trust we have, and how comfortable we are just hanging out is GREAT! I just don't want to ruin that.

So I ramble on because I need to be in the habit of writing, even if this writing has nothing to do with my projects. I don't care if anyone reads this or not, but this is easier on my hands that writing in a journal. It's helping me organize my thoughts too.

I know I need to get my car nailed down first, then I need to get back with my writing and work with Elizabeth, after that, school, but who knows from there? We'll see.

Thank you God for your guiding hand in my life.

Tuesday, January 04, 2005

I got a new phone

Cool, huh? For those of you who know me, the number is [Deleted for security purposes]. So, my Portland is no longer any good. For those of you who don't know me, please don't call, I don't want a bunch of calls from people I don't know.

No more Portland number, means only people who I choose to share the number with can get a hold of me anymore. Take that all you who WRONGED me. Never shall you get a chance to redeem yourselves! HA!!

Have a good week.