Monday, July 25, 2005

Write write.....riiiiight!!

So, I started actually writing again, for the first time in like six months. I've worked on a story, the story, Flatiron City. I'm super excited, I have a project to work on, now if I can actually write something worth putting on the site:-)

Fun fun fun. I'll just blurb here for now, cuz I can't think and I don't have time to play any guild wars stuff right now.

Thursday, July 21, 2005

Rob Thomas

Rob Thomas has this really catchy pop song out right now that says, "I don't wanna be lonely no more...." And that's how I feel. I currently have ONE friend that I can hang out with. I need more, I need fellowship, and I don't know where to find it.

I need to be able to hang out with people my age, but I don't know where to meet them.

I also don't want to have another girlfriend..............EVER!!!! Dating is a WASTE OF TIME!! I want to get to know someone and see them at their worst and their best. People who are dating tend to put their best foot forward. That's LYING!!!! I want honesty, but I don't know where to find it.

I don't want to be lonely anymore. I know I'm not alone, I just feel lonely.

Friday, July 15, 2005

Home....

I want to go back home. I don't know where my home is, but that's the place I'm longing for right now. I have this deep emptyness inside, and I feel like I have no place.....anywhere.

I want to know what God wants me to do with my life, but I just don't know how to figure that out. I was moving in the direction that I believed He'd called me to move in, but that involved someone else, and she isn't going that way now, and I can't do this alone. I know I've been called to a life that requires me to work with others, especially a wife, but now that the only person I've ever truly wanted to marry, and still do, has gone, I don't know where to turn. My life doesn't hinge on that, but now the vision is gone and I just feel lost.

I want to go home, but where is my home? Where do I go from here? What can I do with my life? Am I worth having around?

I know God wants me to continue the Bible study because people keep showing up, but aside from that I have no clue. I don't want to leave Colorado, but there aren't any good Christian schools here. The only Christian university in town teaches unbiblical lies as fact, and they refuse to change.

What next God?

Wednesday, July 13, 2005

Flatiron City

So Gabe and I have started a new blog together, it's a story that takes place in Boulder Colorado a few years down the road. You should really check it out when we get it going. All we have right now is the intro post, but stay tuned as this is going to be big, in more ways than one.

Onto new stuff. Elizabeth and I are officially broken up, and I'm not anymore. I'm excited for where God is leading me.

I had an interview last Thursday for the Cafe Supervisor position at another store, and I should hear back by the end of the week whether or not I got the job. It would be nice to work at that store, and the job itself is really exciting.

If I don't get that job, I'll really look into going to school. I want to go to England when I pay off my car, but I would still love to go to Cambridge University. I'll look into Moody Bible Institute, one of the best bible schools in the world, but other than that the only thing I can think of to move forward is Police academy. I'm just not sure what I'm going to do next.

I bought some new music the other day, "Jaku" by DJ Krush (this guy rocks, if you get a chance check him out)m "Exodus" by Utada (cute girl, decent voice, worthy buy), " '64-'95 " by lemon Jelly (cool dance music, not sure yet how to describe it) and "Who Killed..." by The Zutons (rocks big time, one of the coolest rock albums I've heard in a long time).

I also bought the three books from Megatokyo.com, the webcomic. I really like the place, and I wanted Gabe to be able to read them, but since he has Dialup, I bought the books for him to borrow. I think that's all the news that is news, there's light at the end of the tunnel.