Friday, October 28, 2005

New post!!

Alrighty then. There is FINALLY a new post up at Flatiron City. Check it out. Gabe should have a post up later today!!! (It's to make up for the one we missed last week.)

Thursday, October 27, 2005

A Scanner Darkly

So, I'm looking on iTunes website for movie trailers, and I ran across the trailer for this cool looking movie based on the book by Philip K Dick. It's style is one of the best ideas I've ever seen, there's this commercial where a real man is talking and they animated all of his movements. That's what this movie is going to be like. It is increadible to watch the trailer.

I couldn't find an official movie site, but you can view the trailer through Warner Independent, or on the iMusic site through iTunes.

Wednesday, October 26, 2005

Checking new Firefox Extentions

(h3(k1n6 0n3 7w0 7hr33 (Leet speak) Grfgvat bar gjb (Rot13) That's just an example. I can get HEX, URL, BIN, Base64, and morse code. It's a nifty little extention. Not like the confusor :P

Tuesday, October 25, 2005

My space? My @$$

So, I just signed up for MySpace to get some extra exposure for Flatiron City, and I HATE that non-user-friendly POS!!! It was the most anoying five minutes I've ever spent on a computer. I want to wring the creator's neck, moron. Ok, I'm don ranting now XD

Me in Black and White

Woot NEW PIC!!
I still look 18

Sunday, October 23, 2005


I am SOO PISSED at my manager right now. He scheduled me to close tomorrow when he KNOWS I have church tomorrow night. He changed the schedule yesterday, I think, and I looked at it a hundred times before that, and I was supposed to open. I didn't catch the change until tonight, and I don't think there's going to be anything I can do about it. I'll either have to miss church, or skip work. I'm not willing to do either one. I'm just SOOO MAD!!

Writing pt.2

One of the things I like about writing is that I get to play god. Now slow down, I do not blaspheme! Just let me explain. This morning as I'm prepping to work the story I posted a few days ago, I realized that I don't want to write that style of story. So, rather than try and create new characters and a new story, I'll write the "sequel" to the story I've already started. I'll keep working on the other story, but it'll be in the for of flashbacks and stuff. This is going to become an epic. I need to "steal" other peoples' styles, but that's fine, cause how many original stories are out there anyway? Mine is slightly original. I'm only using other styles and making them my own. WOOT I'm excited. Too bad I have to work soon. Gotta think things through. I'll make it happen though. HA!!


So, over the past few months, as I continue to delve deeper into the one thing I truly love, I realize that I don't care so much if I make money at it. I just want readers. thousands..... no MILLIONS of them. If I can get paid to write, that's fantastic, but at the moment, I just don't care, as long as people are reading.

Now, I know I have readers, a few loyal friends here and there. How do I get more? I want as many readers as I can get. But I want to write, so I'm going to finish my breakfast, get dressed, and get some writing done.

Thursday, October 20, 2005

Where's my music?

I find myself slightly agitated, as I would really like to listen to classical music, but the internet radio station won't come through on my computer. I don't know why it stopped, but now I can't listen. DANG IT, I WAS ENJOYING THAT! Anyway, I don't own any classical CDs (except the Legend of Zelda sound tracks that I downloaded...LEGALLY!!) so I think I'd rather sit in silence.

But I wanted music:-(

Wednesday, October 19, 2005

A new venture

A little over a year ago, my first girlfriend and I created a character for a story. I named him Aidan. After she broke up with me, I became so heartbroken, I found it hard to write, so I started this blog. I remained silent throughout my relationship with Elizabeth, getting little writing done. But I never lost the desire to explore Aidan's past, or his future. Welcome to my aspirations have grown even higher.


So you’ve come to hear a legend. You were right to come to me; I am the only one who knows the whole story. Where shall I begin? Ah, yes.

In the beginning, a great being ruled creation. You would call him God, and that would not be wrong, but his name is much greater than that. Over the years, though, mortal man has forgotten his name, which is a pity since it is such a beautiful name.

Now, in the beginning, the nameless One ruled creation, but creation was quite empty, so he created the planets. He grew plants and animals, separating their homes with water. The animals did not fill the lonely void He felt, though, so he created men, giving them rule over the land and its inhabitants.

The nameless One saw that his people worked ceaselessly on the land in order to make it prosper, and though that pleased Him, He knew that is was not good. In a truly inspired moment, the nameless One created day and night, naming them Allion and Dellith, and commanded them to guard the planets. When Allion looked on the land, the people would work, and then man would rest under the watchful eye of Dellith.

Now this arrangement pleased everyone involved for quite some time, but after many years, Dellith desired to observe the people at work, so he encroached on Allion’s watch. Allion, desiring rest from his labor, did the same to Dellith, and though both wanted to experience the other’s charge, neither was willing to relinquish their duty.

The Great One saw what happened in His creation and stepped in saying, “I have given each of you a task, if you do not approve of my judgment, tell me and I will remove you from it.”

Allion and Dellith, thinking that they would be given something greater, perhaps a planet of their own to rule, both declared that they did not like their job.

Knowing their thoughts, the Great One said, “The power I gave to you, I will not remove, but from this day forward you will rule only those deceived into following you. I will take charge of the days and the seasons. Further more, I will cast you from my presence. But do not be deceived, everything you do will be known to me.”

On that day, the Great One formed a void and cast Dellith and Allion from His sight.

To this day, the pair fight for control of the people, reaching into the land of men and misleading many. We follow one or the other of them as if they are gods. In fact, over the centuries, most of us have chosen one or the other of them. We forgot the True One, and generations were condemned to the void to spend eternity with their preferred master.

Many centuries after the creation of the void, the True One revealed Himself to his people again, drawing a small number of them to Him. Many of us turned to The Way, the simple men allowed to choose, but those who worked in the temple of Allion or Dellith were cast out, rejected by society, and some were killed. Still The Way gained followers, and the True God gathered His creation back to Him.

I hope to have one post every week, but for now I'm going to try for every other week. Check out Flatiron too.

Copyright disclaimer

Just so everyone is clear, all work submitted here is Copyright Giles (me) 2005. ANY unauthorized use is in violation of applicable laws. Basically, ask me before you do anything with my work.

Friday, October 14, 2005

What should I do?

I find myself having a day off, not wanting to read, not wanting to write, not even wanting to play video games. I spent three hours at work (not working) because I am so desparately lonely that I just want people to chat with. If I don't get into some sort of life-fulfilling routine, I don't know what'll happen. Gabe has to work today, but when he gets home, I'm not going to want to hang out. Steve is entertaining his parents this weekend. All my other friends are either busy or married, so they have more important things to do.

I know I should be motivating myself to get some writing done, that is after all my passion, but as I sit unloading the contents of my brain, I am rather surprised by the speed at which I type. I need to get all this stuff out. Since I heard from Elizabeth two weeks ago, I haven't been able to stop thinking about her, and that's pissing me off. I don't want to think about her, I don't want to have anything to do with her, but I seem incabable of hating her, and I don't want to, I just want to forget her. I wish she could read this so she would know, cause if I told her I'm afraid I'd hurt her, and I don't want to do that, I just want to forget her, move on with my life.

That's another thing, I want to get my life moving again. I feel so stagnant. Tom is still thinking about aplying for that job, instead of actually doing it. I just want something to happen. I'm tired of waiting around, and I don't know what to do. I never seem to have anything to do but wait. The little action I ever get is over so quickly, then I spend more and more time waiting.

When will it be my turn for life to happen? My family is getting along nicely in their business, Gabe has tons going on; his blog, his family, his job. Steve likewise.

Tyler is joining the army, ships out nov 3. Tom has a booming social life. It seems I just am the boring one, as always. When do I get to write happy blogs, instead of feeling like b**ching about what's not happening to my life.

I just feel like my life is being wasted. Give me something to do, let me hang out with people, let me talk to someone. I'm sick of living life by myself. I want to share it with someone. I want to do more than just work in a bookstore. I want to write, but when will I get any good at it? I want to pay off my car, I want to go to London. I want to stop living MY life. I want the life in my dreams, where I mean something to everyone around me, and I enjoy everything that I do. I want to do something that really means something to ME. Not putzing around for two or three more years, waiting for something to happen. I want OPPORTUNITIES, I want something to HAPPEN!!!!! When? Why must I continue to wait? When will I get out of my rut?

I feel like the black sheep. Why am I so different? When will I be remembered. I know what's going to happen too: Gabe's going to read this, and he's going to write a comment about how I do mean smething to people, how God's timing is perfect, I just need to be patient. Erik might say something encouraging too, but that won't change how I feel.

I used to have a good deal of people in my life, people I could rely on, and not all of them were guys. I know we can never go back to the way things were. But I want women in my life again. I so want to share my life with a special one, and as I sit here, at my keyboard, struggling to contain my tears, I just wonder, when will my suffering end? When will I get to praise God for the big things, instead of just for the small. I know He still loves me, and I am greatful for the small things in my life, but I feel just so empty and alone. I don't want to do this anymore.

Just a note...

Flatiron City post is up. I'm going to try to start writing another series also, lets see if I can write two stories a week. I want to post once a week on Flatiron City, but lets see if I can duplicate that on a second site:-)

Tom and Tyler

So, my buddy Tyler went and passed his physical for the army on tuesday, he ships out Nov. 3. I'm excited for him because he's taking responsibility and providing for his family. For those who don't know, Tyler is one of my coworkers at Borders.

Tom, my supervisor, was planning on applying for a manager position at a local coffee chain because he's not making enough money at the store. That would suck because I like having both Tom and Tyler around, but if Tom leaves, I would hopefully (being groomed for it) get a promotion. I really want a promotion. I would deffinitely use the money wisely, cause I'd get a raise as well.

Anyway, that's about it for me, new Flatiron post will be up by noon.

Wednesday, October 12, 2005

Cute pizza

So Gabe, Steve and I went out for pizza tonight, and the girl who took our order was... um... GORGEOUS!!!! I mean DANG, she was HOT, and CUTE, not that I'm shallow or anything, but....aaahhhh :)

Monday, October 10, 2005


I hate, hate, HATE Colorado drivers. On my way to work, this idiot in front of me was going 10 under, and when I got of on my exit, he was swerving between the right turn lane and the lane I needed to be in. And to top if off, he had a Colorado Native bumpersticker....GO BACK TO CALIFORNIA RETARD!!!! Learn to drive or GET OFF THE ROAD. MORONS, it's ONLY RAIN!

Saturday, October 08, 2005

Living in harmony....not quite

So, I filled out the eharmony profile for myself. The only problem is I don't turn 21 undtil December, and I can't be a member until I'm 21. Oh well, I have the whole thing save, and then I can get matched by one of the best sites in the country. It wouldn't be such a big deal (not that it is) if I knew someone who I could get to know better in a romantic relationship.

Wednesday, October 05, 2005

My best friend

My best friend, Gabe, just got internet at his appartment. First time he's had steady internet in almost a year. (had dialup but that was very iffy at times) He posted a poem that made me slightly depressed, and had like five responses to it. I wish I had more people who missed me like that. (broken record time) I want a group of friends, (I know you've heard it before, but who's reading this anyway?) I want to get along with all of my coworkers, and I want to GET MARRIED!!! Not a girlfriend (well you have to start somewhere though) but I'm sick of sitting at my house alone every day I have off. Video games can only entertain me for so long (and I just got a new one to play with my little brother). AAGGHHH!!! Just someone....that's all I ask.

Sunday, October 02, 2005

What the H-E Double Hockey Sticks?

So, yesterday I got a voicemail from Elizabeth. She said she would really like to be my friend again, that we should get together so she could find out what's been going on in my life. Now, I don't hate her, I don't want her to feel any pain from this situation, but I can't put myself in a position where I can't trust myself. I KNOW I would fall for her again, that's the way I am, and I refuse to get hurt again, at least that way. I'm not ready to renew that friendship. And I don't trust her. I can't trust her. Like it or not, she lied to me. It's not as if I want to remain untrusting, but I need to be careful.

My relationship with God, my job, my friendships with Gabe and Steve, and Flatiron City are my biggest priorities. They take up most of my time, so even if I wanted to spend time with Elizabeth again, I don't have time. I can't make time either. I need to get ahead of the game with Flatiron, I'm going to be getting some overtime at the store two weeks this month, and I have church a half an hour away from where I live two nights a week. I just don't want to spend any more energy than I am. But most of all, I WON'T get myself into a position to get hurt.