Saturday, November 26, 2005

Doo doo du dooo:-)

Have I mentioned how much I want to WRITE??!?!! I would LOVE to be able to quit my job, and write full time. I just CAN'T express HOW MUCH I WANT THIS!! This is what I LOVE! I just have no clue where to begin. I just don't know what to start. God, please lead me. PLEASE!

Thursday, November 24, 2005

Oh I'm so sleepy

I love thanksgiving.

Moving on. Tomorrow is Friday. That means a Flatiron post should be up, but I don't know if Gabe will be able to get his story finished in time.

So, my holidays are coming out with a good start. I had a good day today. I keep getting this feeling that things are going to pick up for me, but that "event" is just out of reach! I can almost reach it, if I try, but I'm trying not to try for it. I'm looking forward the future, but I need to get my relationship with God back in order. I keep falling behind. But I do want that bright future!


Happy Thanksgiving everyone!!!! Make sure you thank God for all the blessings you have!! I know I will, even though I don't have everything I want. There is ALWAYS something to be thankful for, so PRAISE JESUS!!

Wednesday, November 23, 2005


So, I'm over at my brother's friend's house. We're gonna play Warcraft III over a LAN. It's going to be fun. SO DON'T BUG ME!

Tuesday, November 22, 2005

Sunday, November 20, 2005


Ok, so from 3-4 pm today, I'm working in the cafe at my store, and we had AT LEAST 60 people come through and buy something. If each of them would have tipped 50cents, we would have made ten bucks each (there were three of us) IN ONE HOUR. We had $1.75ish to split three ways. COME ON PEOPLE this ISN'T A HOBBY!!!! A nickel each would have given us three dollars to split. WHAT IS WRONG WITH YOU??? You think we LIKE putting up with your ATTITUDE? We have to smile and be polite, while YOU are RUDE, IMPATIENT, and so UTTERLY STINGY that our day gets ruined.

Just had to get that out of my system.

Friday, November 18, 2005

Oh yeah, it's Friday....

Flatiron City is posted for the week.

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Just went and saw HP last night, midnight show. IT ROCKED!! I loved it. No, they didn't stay one hundred percent to the book, but who cares? The movie was awesome. I really enjoyed it, more than the first three.

Tuesday, November 15, 2005

Writer's block

I don't know what to do. I just can't think anymore. I want to write a good story, but I'm fresh out of good ideas. I was hoping to get some writing done today. Grrr!!! Everything I write tends to move in the same direction: downhill. If I have a good idea, I kill it by following the same pattern, or I quite because I don't know how to describe what's going on. I don't want to write Pulp fiction, I want something new and different. But what do I write? My fantasy story idea is lame, same with the mystery, Flatiron seems to have hit a wall. I have something for friday, and I'm excited about it, but I can't get another story writen. I don't know what people want to read about, what I want to talk about. Where do the characters need to go? What is next in their lives? What should I write? I need ideas, and I need a new dirrection to take my stories. AHHH!!!!!! THE INSANITY!!

Monday, November 14, 2005

Wow, lots of posts

I know I've been posting a lot more lately, but that's because I have alot to say. Which brings me to the actual topic of this post. I want someone to chat with. I want a real conversation with someone interesting. Gabe is cool, and I enjoy chatting with him, but the conversation is pretty much the same pattern. I want conversations with someone who uses different styles of speech. Someone who has a different perspective on life. So, that's about it. Just had that floating around in my head, thought I'd spit it out into the world, see what happens. I still hate MySpace!

Up to par

Ok, so I FINALLY feel normal!! It is great to not feel sick in any way. WOO HOOOOOO! I'm in a good mood, I'm excited.....I have a unique story for Flatiron City for this week. It's different than anything I've ever writen, and it pushed my abilities to the limit. (Not saying much, I'm a pretty limited writer.) I'm excited to be going back to work tomorrow. I've enjoyed my mini vacation, but I want to do something every day. ALL RIGHT!!! I'm also excited for the Christmas season, especially if I get to meet some cool new people ;-)

Saturday, November 12, 2005

Wanna write, wanna feel better

I want to get some good writing done. I'm getting better, but my story ideas really aren't going anywhere.

I'm not feeling up to par either. I've been trying to get over a cold for a week, and even though I don't feel sick, I'm physically exhausted. It's taxing to breathe, I just want to sleep. But at the same time, I want to go out and do something.

*sigh* I guess I'll just coast through the rest of my vacation.

Thursday, November 10, 2005

I Hate Christmas!

So, the accursed psuedo-christian holiday is rapidly speeding toward us. Commercialized bs!! Time of good cheer, "celebrate family togetherness". BAH! Let's sell more Santa crap, toys, books, movies, games, STUFF STUFF STUFF!!! Yelling, screaming, fighting, impatience, "That's MINE, I saw it first!"

Enjoy the togetherness, feel the love! Have we really forgotten what this holiday is about? I wince in pain as I sit here thinking about the abomination it has become.

You may say, "But Giles, many people still celebrate Christmas for what it truly is about. Does your family not?"

As a matter of fact they do. And my entire family on my Dad's side is going to be in town this year, which means that when I'm not working, I'll be with them. Trying to make them feel important. It is important to me to give due respect to my Grandparents on their 50th aniversary, but everyone else is going to want to fill the time with worthlessness. There's no point. I gain a few trinkets, work my butt off, but all in all I'll be wasting yet another Christmas.

Three years in a row my Christmas is going to end up shite in a leaky bucket. And I'm pretty dead set on letting it.

"The holiday is what you make it." That's a lie. If it was true, I'd make it disappear.


But on the other hand, I love Christmas. December is my time of the year. I just long for it to mean more than it does. I see all these movies where Christmas is the time when magic happens, but life's not like the movies. Magic never happens. Some day, Christmas will be magic for me again! I SWEAR. I refuse to let the women in and out of my life ruin my holiday for the third year!

I love Jesus, and this Holiday is about Him. If I have to suffer through my family to honor Him, then that's what I'll do.

My Love, I long to spend this christmas with you, but I haven't even met you yet. Maybe next year.

Some day, in London.

Monday, November 07, 2005


So, my parents basement flooded, and this is the type of thing that stresses me out. At the most it is a minor inconvenience, since the only reason I go into the basement is to do laundry (that's right ladies, I can wash my own clothes!). Everything is pretty much cleaned up, the water just needs to dry. There are several industrial fans drying the carpet, and since the entire basement is on one circuit breaker, I have been advised not to use the laundry room. Bummer. We have also been informed that the problem MUST be fixed, and it's gonna cost at least eight thousand dollars. My mom is trying to find out if homeowner's insurence will cover the fix. Just pray that things work out. This is a big deal, and it's bugging me.

Wednesday, November 02, 2005

So, how bout some fun

I bought Jade Empire today for 15 bucks. I wanted to get "From Russia with Love", the new Bond game. That game has Sean Connery as the voice of Bond. It's gonna ROCK! I like Jade Empire though.

Tuesday, November 01, 2005

My value on the blackmarket

I am worth $1,985,124 on

Fantasy Realms

Fantasy Realms
I found this guy a couple of years ago through the site where I attempted to learne to draw. His site is Niko Geyer


I guess this is an update. I haven't done much in the last week, except work. Work has been going well, my tips are going up some. It's nice to have some extra cash. Flatiron City might have an update from ME this week, even though last week was mine. Keep an eye out.