Thursday, March 30, 2006

Stream of Conciousness part 2

She wore a black trenchcoat, her red curls falling out from beneath the hood. She watched me as I strolled into the alley from the street.

"We appreciate your patience," she said in a low voice as she handed me a large manilla envelope. "Your instructions."

She moved past me to leave, but I grabbed hold of her arm. She drew a gun, I knocked it to the ground. "Understand," I glared at her, "I don't exsist. You may not have been warned, but I work on my own and I'm not to be observed." She glared at me as I made my speech, but I forged ahead. "I can tell this is your first agent encounter, and I'm unique. If I see you before the completion of the assignment, be asured you will die. You are to await my return at the designated location. Do you understand?"

Her jaw tightened defiently, but she nodded. I released my hold and the redhead disappeared. I took back streets to my flat, avoiding the light as much as possible. The rain pounded relentlessly as I laid out the contents of the envelope on my desk. A picture of a greased-up pig was attatched to the file, labeled Slockov.

It appeared a Russian gang had kidnapped the Irishman's daughter. Bad news, if you knew the Irishman! Explained why I got the job.

I opened a small white envelope on the bottome of the pile. I found two thousand dollars, US, starter cash for expences; and ten thousand pounds, UK, a downpayment on my fee.

I scanned through the files again, check my watch, and decided to pick things up in the morning. I'd need to get an American passport.

Tuesday, March 21, 2006

Giles is no more.....

I have cancelled my MySpace account because it pisses me off. I hate it like a five-star chef hates fast-food. It goes against everything I stand for.......well not really, but still, I hate it. The end, the deed is done.......stop bugging me.

Monday, March 20, 2006

It's weird how God can do stuff.

I never noticed His hand moving in me until I looked back, and it took some drastic revelations to see what I saw. He is awesome, and I say Halleluia, thank You for loving me. I pray that I may honor You with my life each and every day. Thank You for keeping me within earshot of Your Voice, and for using me to bless people even when I don't see it. Thank You so much for everything You have done for me, especially since I don't deserve them.

I believe humans have a God ordained obligation to be 100% honest at all times. I strive to meet that obligation, and I can see times when I've fallen short, not in telling falsehoods, but in withholding the truth. God has forgiven me, and the people I have "wronged" have recieved due appologies. I beleive I can look back and say that any harm I have caused anyone has been taken care of on my part, and it is now up to them to forgive me, and that's between them and God.

God, thank You for keeping me safe from great harm that could have "ruined" my life. Thank You for keeping me faithfully coming back to You, even when I did screw up, and thank You for forgiving me when I have screwed up. Thank You for loving me. Please help me to give You glory and honor, to bring others to praise You, and when they praise You, please let them forget me, so that I may be the young colt, and You triumphant King entering the city. God, bring glory to Your Name, and humble me. I come to You, not with my voice raised and my hands in the air, but my head bowed in suplication, on my hands and knees, submitting to Your Majesty. You are my great God and I will serve you until the day I die! Once again I pledge my life to You, it it Yours to do with as You Will.

Not mine, but Your Will be done!


Religion has no value in a world full to bursting with hurting people. Religion has never satisfied any need, nor will it ever. Relationships are the only way to help people, and not just the poor, but the rich as well. A relationship with Yeshua (that's Jesus in Hebrew) is the only true peace we can receive in this place. Jesus is not found in going to church, giving money, moving to Africa, and while all those things are good, they do not bring you into a relationship with Him. I knew this many years ago, and I am learning more every day. I am beginning to understand some of what a relationship with Jesus entailes. I know I'll never get it until I reach Heaven, but what I'm learning, though it doesn't make me rich, or even happy, it brings me peace. I continue to struggle in life, and I continue to seek God, and I continue to find Him. I wish I had a better way of explaining that, a way that would help you to understand, but I don't. I get it in how it relates to others, I can only see how it might relate to me. Please understand, religion is not what I seek, but a true Relationship, based on servanthood toward the One i love.

I could go around in circles with this all night, but I won't. Please know I'm praying for you, and that God loves you, and He desires a relationship with you. The ball's in your court. Ask me questions. If I don't know the answer, I'll find out.

Friday, March 17, 2006

Jury Duty

I got summoned, but I'll have to get posponed do to travel plans. It's inconvenient for me. But oh well.

I've had a really bad week, and it doesn't show any signs of getting better. I'm not sure why it's so bad, it just is. My week is really sucking! But that's life, huh?

Thursday, March 09, 2006

What's that smell?

It's my CLEAN ROOM!! Ok, so there are a couple of piles of paper, but that can't really be helped; I don't have a filing cabinet. I got everything vacuumed, though. And I got rid of whatever was making that stale smell.

I love having a clean room :)

Saturday, March 04, 2006

An organization of the mind

So, I'm getting all confused again. I start to get a swing going, and then everything gets really busy and I lose "control" of my mind. I can't focus, can't really get anything done. I can hardly get this blog going. Hmm......I really want to get my thoughts organized. Every time I sit down to do something, my brain shuts down. I wish I could meet with people on a weekly basis to discuss my writing. Gabe and Steve have been so busy with their lives and Julie is really busy with her stuff, so that elliminates all of the "resources" for my inspiration. What to do....what to do......hrmm. I know it'll work out when I just stop being lazy :)

Thursday, March 02, 2006

Stream of conciousness.

I order another glass of beer, look around the room and wonder where everyone has gone. I feel alone in this small, dark bar. What day is it? I think it's Friday, some time in March. Smoke is floating slowly toward me from a table in the corner; cigar and pipe officianadoes. Ooo! that redhead is attractive, I wonder who she's meeting. I think it started raining again. The juke box is making too much noise, I think somebody really likes soft rock. I'll have to go put on a few good songs. The redhead looks at me as I walk over the dance floor. Past the pool tables, a band is setting up. I think they're Irish Punk. I put a few quarters into the juke box, pick a few Classics, is that raspberry I smell? A hand touches the small of my back, auburn hair brushes my cheek. "The moon smells of red shamrocks," a soft voice whispers in my ear. The hair on my neck stands on end, "But the stars taste like whiskey," is my reply. "Meet me in the alley in five minutes." She's gone before I can get another look at her. I've been waiting for two weeks, now The Office has a job for me.........

Stay Tuned

Wednesday, March 01, 2006

Ask me if I like "Stained"

So, it's been a while, but here's another post for you to set your claws into. I've been consumed with my thoughts this week, just lots o' little stuff runnin' round me brain, like lepruchauns! Anyhoo, just thought I'd put sometin up. I'm waiting for my turn to take a shower so I can go to bed. I have a day off, and I probably won't reallyget much done with my writing, but I want to get a couple more characters created by the end of the day. I have lots o' other stuff't needs doin'.

Enjoy my day off :D