Saturday, April 29, 2006

Ho humm

So, goals suck! I didn't make my goal for writing this week, and I'm not sure what I'm going to do. I haven't written anything for Flatiron City for almost a month, and I don't know the next time I will either.

My life is so up in the air, but I'm in a great mood, and I don't feel confused or anything. I guess most of that is because I'm working on something I'm passionate about, my relationship with God is the most important thing to me now, and I have friends that care about me. Plus I'm quite refreshed from my vacation!

Anyway, I'm having to rethink things for my mystery, but that's why I'm still in the drafting stages, right? This is just the stepsheet, and I don't know if this will reflect the final stepsheet, and it definitely won't look like the finished product. No worries though, I'm enjoying the process. I'll get some work done tonight, some tomorrow, but not a lot. I have two days off to rest, and I need it after a hectic two weeks at work. I also needed the hang-out time with my friends and my brother.

So that's a summation of my life, but as always, not even scratching the surface.

Tuesday, April 25, 2006

Network Neutrality-Make yourself heard!

Ok, so this is a rather serious issue, especially for us bloggers! Read the article:

News from PC Magazine: Coalition Sounds Off on Net Neutrality Legislation

http://www.savetheinternet.com/=map Then go here to see where your rep. stands. KEEP THE INTERNET NEUTRAL!

Let me reiterate, this is called EXTORTION! But if you have half a brain, you'd understand that, since you've already read the article.

Thursday, April 20, 2006

Goals are good

I have set a goal to get Act 1 of my stepsheet complete by next Thursday. It might be a lofty goal, but I have to start somewhere. I don't know what my different acts will look like, so I don't know what my next goal will be. Let's see what happens.

In the mean time, Pandora is awesome. Gabe mentioned it in an earlier post on his blog. I enjoy listening to music that I like.

If you are in to podcasts, check out Lynchland at liamlynch.net. I find him quite humorous.

Being at work after my vacation isn't as bad as I thought it would be, but I still want to write full time and quit working at the store. I don't dislike my job, I just enjoy writing so much, and my job gets in the way.

Gabe says he won't talk about relationships in his blog, well that's his choice, I however STARTED this blog as a vent for my frustrations with women, so Gabe, thank you for sticking to your choice, but I'm going to continue to open up the anonymous public about my love-life, or lack-there-of. But not now because there's nothing to say.

You would think that the spellcheck on blogger would recognize "blog" as a word. It doesn't, though. Unless it learned it when I told it to.

Tuesday, April 18, 2006

Back from London

Everyone wants Pictures! Ok, so I have some up on Flickr.com. I won't be able to get them all up this month, but I'll let ya'll know when I get more up. Check it out! There's not much to tell about the trip, I got the research done that I'd gone for, other than that, there's not much to say. Nothing important happened. As funny annecdotes appear in my mind, I might share stuff, but probably not. This month, enjoy pictures I took of the Peter Pan statue in Hyde Park.

I have to say, I haven't walked that much in a long, long time. I probably walked 40 miles over the week, maybe more! I really enjoyed the public transit system too. Much better than RTD in Denver. Love it!

My London Photos

Monday, April 10, 2006

I'm going to ENGLAND

I get to go on my VACATION today! And I'm going to ENGLAND!! I'm SOO EXCITED! I just need to pack and get my cash stuff taken care of, then I have to wait until my flight leaves at 8:30 tonight. WOO HOOOOOO!!!

Monday, April 03, 2006

Dreams

I put very little stock in them. However, I had two very weird ones last night, and one of them threw me for a loop. In one of them, I saw an old friend of mine who is recovering from an eating disorder, and it was nice to see her again in the dream, but that once didn't last very long and is of little significance. In the other one, I was at church, a band was playing some really "emotional" worship song in a minor key (Christian Cliche), but I was really getting into it, humbling myself before God, curled up on the floor crying while I prayed. I felt a movement and looked over. A friend of mine who I haven't seen in over two years was sitting next to me, praying. I have a tendency to just notice things around me, so I thought nothing of her kneeling next to me, and I turned my attention back to praying. But after a moment, I realized that she'd seen me praying, and she moved closer to minister to me, putting her arms around me and saying softly something to the affect of, "let's pray together." I can't remember exactly what she said, but I knew she wanted to MINISTER to ME! Totally selfless! I just put my arms around her and wept, I prayed with her, and then the dream ended, I think.

I woke up more than a little upset, realizing that I'm still alone, but I was happy because I had a revelation.

You see, I've been shying away from the idea of a relationship for many reasons, not the least of which being, I don't know how to keep a relationship focused on God. I know how selfish I am, and I think that's a big reason why Sara and Elizabeth broke up with me, despite what they might say. But if the girl I'm courting is praying with me, and I'm praying for her, and doing everything I can to minister to her, then that at least will help keep my focus on God.

What does this mean for me? It means I'm going to be depressed for the next couple of weeks really wanting a relationship again, but I won't get one because I'm still too terrified of rejection. But I know I want someone to pray with, and not a guy. I want something different.