Wednesday, June 21, 2006

What to do?

I feel myself drawn in one of two directions....ok three. I really need Christian people to hang out with, and I have a night off but I don't know any churches that have a service tonight. At least not where I can FELLOWSHIP. All they have is a midweek worship service so large that no one is really going to talk with me, and no one will be my age anyway. So option TWO, see if my non-christian friends want to hang out, and as much as I enjoy hanging out with them, I'm just not in the mood tonight. Option three.........drinking until I pass out. I've never done that before, and it doesn't sound appealing, but I'm sick of sitting at home by myself. I just don't want to feel anything any more. I'm not going to a club because real people don't go to clubs. They are all fake and immature. I give up.

Saturday, June 17, 2006

A year ago

It's interesting where life can take you. A year ago this week Elizabeth broke up with me. I've been reading what I wrote last year, and it's weird to see what I was thinking back then. In a year I've changed a lot, and I've grown. I know I'm more mature now, and I know who I am and where I stand with God, and I have a better idea of where He's taking me. That'll change, I'm sure, but as for right now, I have a better clue than I did last year. Am I excited? Not really. But I'm willing and ready for whatever God has for me. I can handle pain, and I trust him. Hit with the Curve Ball, let's see what happens.

I humble myself at the foot of the Cross. Blessed Savior, draw me close to you. Thank you for the growth you have brought me through.

What on earth?

I actually have some sort of consistency to my!

So, tonight I hung out with some friends I haven't really seen in a long time. It's been almost two years since I had a real conversation with one of them, Rachel (for those of you questioning, she is the VERY loose inspiration for Rachel of Flatiron City), another (Hannah, the oldest) it's been about three, same with Rebecca (the youngest, and I'm really, really, REALLY sorry if I misspelled your name, don't hate me).

It was a lot of fun. We played pool at Jillian's, then went to the Yard House and sat on the patio and just chit chatted. Fun stuff.

I'm hoping to get together with Rachel again so we can catch up. She was one of my closest friends when I was living out in Portland, we talked on the phone a lot because she lived out here, and I just wandered off through my relationships with Sara and then Elizabeth. And it's taken me a year to get to a point where I don't feel like I would do anything stupid that could ruin the friendship like I did with Elizabeth. So hopefully we'll be able to talk and hang out occasionally.

Anyway, that's about all I have to say, except Gabe is a jerk, and if you don't know why, ask him about Mix Master Mike :P

Thursday, June 08, 2006

Writelly doo

Umm....blogger is looking wierd.

I went to lunch with my grandparents, had a good time. It's nice to catch up with the fam.


Return to the life I used to love, time has run out and I'm no longer the same. No one really understands me, and I don't understand them. My life is good, my love is great. I'm not motivated to be creative at the moment. Here it goes.

Katsuro looked out his window as the sun set behind the mountains. He'd just returned from London to visit his folks, and he was riding the high of being back to his birthplace. He glanced over the numbers for his Tea Gallery and smiled at Rachel's success running the shop in his absence.

He pulled a bottle of vodka from his cabinet, poured a shot and headed to bed. Tomorrow would see Katsuro back in his daily routine, running Hanaka Nippon Tea Gallery.

Sorry, that's all I got. If you want to read about Katsuro, check out For those of you not in the know:)

Late at night, time to "ZzzzZzzZZZzzzzzz"

Huh? Oh yeah, I guess it's not all that late, only half past midnight. Listening to the old Pandora mix.

I've been chilling out on a Christian message board this afternoon, and it's actually been kind of fun. I still don't like internet socializing, but that's because it's not real human interaction. NO IT ISN'T, DON'T TRY TO CONVINCE ME OTHER WISE. Get out of your house and DOOO SOMMETHIIIING!!!lol

Ok. Anyway. I need to figure out something to do on Saturday now that church has been moved to Sunday nights.

If any of the peeps who knows me wants to do something, let me know. I want to do something engaging, intelectual, conversational. All that jazz. No, I don't want to go to a jazz show, you can't talk at a concert :P

So yeah, I want to write something again, so I should sit down and do that tomorrow, but not now because my head is spinning, wich is no fair because I didn't go get any vodka or rum tonight. I'd like some rum, or vodka, or maybe just a beer. Ho hummmmm. Hm Hm Dum dm. Randomness is fun some times.

Call me, e-mail me, leave me a comment. If you wanna chat, we can chat. :D

Wednesday, June 07, 2006

Wife and kids

No, this isn't what you expected:)

So I'm at work the other day, and my buddy's girlfriend walks up and asks when I got a girlfriend. I look at her, rather puzzled, and say, "I don't have one." apparently, one of her coworkers THOUGHT I had a gf, so she was rather confused, and my buds gf wanted to harass me about my new girlfriend.

I've known these people a couple of months now, so they started speculating on how probable it was that I DID have a gf, and I was just really good at hiding it because I didn't want nosy people bursting into my life. This escalated into the "obvious" fact that I actually have a wife and three kids.

I assured them this was far from the truth because if it WAS true, I would not be so down about feeling ALONE!!

We went back and forth for about 30 minutes as to my "arguments" just being part of my cover, and me insisting that I'm still single.

I thought it was rather funny, just thought I'd share:-)

Tuesday, June 06, 2006


So, I interviewed for a promotion today, but I don't know if I want it. The interview went well, I'm the only one who applied, and it would be more money. Scheduling isn't really an issue, the only bonus would be more money, but that's not all that important to me any more. My priority is school right now, and this could sort of get in the way. I could get really stressed out too. I just don't know what to do. I'm not too sure I want the job, or if I wanted it when I applied.

Friday, June 02, 2006

Good news

Ok, so I got an interview for the position I applied for. It will mean a promotion if I get it!! And a raise! That would be God really providing for me, big time! That would be awesome. I just don't know if my school schedule will hurt my chances. That's not a HUGE deal, because if I can't go to school AND get the job, then I'll just go to school. Time to knuckle down and think about the long term future.

New subject, Cuddle Buddy: I still don't have one, and I still want one. That's really all I have to say about that, just.....hug me:(

Have a good week.