Tuesday, October 31, 2006

Heroes Update

Ok, so I just checked on NBC.com, Heroes is playing now. I might be able to squeeze in the episode some time this week....but I have to work on my THREE essays. That's right, I said three! Just pray for me. I have all day on thursday to work on them (but Steve, I should make it up to Novo) and I have next monday off.....and tuesday. Just pray that I manage my time properly.

About my flipping out yesterday, I know Heroes is just a TV show, but for some reason it makes me feel better about myself. So maybe I'm going through some early life crisis (too young for midlife). Anyway, sometimes I feel like I'm being scattered and pulled in too many directions and failing at most of my attempts to do something for other people. I've done many things for self-improvement, and they are taking effect, but I feel like the people who are important to me aren't getting the greatest benefits from my presence, if any.

I really want to help people and it seems like there are too many to help and I don't have enough resourses to help them. I did have a positive effect on one of my coworkers this week, though, so that's a praise.

Please pray that I continue to seek God with my entire being, especially since I don't really have a church to call home. That's something that I miss. I know I have Bible study on thursday nights, but I want a church service too.

So that's me.

Who wants to party?

Monday, October 30, 2006

Why?

So on friday I set a recording for the show Heroes, probably my favorite show this season. I got home tonight after class and when I went to watch it....IT WASN'T RECORDED!! Someone did something to screw with my recording. This wouldn't be a big deal except that I have NOOOOO!!!! OTHER!!!! WAY!!!!! OF WATCHING THIS EPISODE!!!!!! It won't play on the NBC website and it's not available to download from iTunes. This pisses me off because everyone in my house knows that I watch this show EVERY monday! I have recorded it every week for over a month, and now I won't be able to watch it because even if it is on again this week (and I checked, IT'S NOT!) I won't have time to watch because I have homework.

This is the only thing I can do on mondays that helps me to relax, and now I missed it. I feel like I've been punched in the gut.

And any of you who have anything to say about me getting upset about not getting to watch my show....you have rituals that keep you sane durring the week so don't say a word unless you can get the episode to me in HiDef!

Agghh! Makes me so MAD, especially because I go out of my way for the people that did this to me when they want to watch a show, or have me record it. Is this too much to ask for? One night in the week where I get to watch something that helps me relax? It's better than drinking!

Friday, October 27, 2006

Snow

was awesome. I made it to school, but the tutor wasn't working that day, so I coudn't work with her. I emailed my essay draft (after working on it all afternoon) to one of my coworkers, so I shouldn't have much more work on the project. I'm hoping to have it complete within a week or two.

Wednesday, October 25, 2006

Do

I hope it doesn't snow too much tonight and tomorrow. I just need to be able to get to school so I can work on my essay with the tutor. I really need to work with her. Anyway...on to other things.

Friday, October 20, 2006

Guess what I'm doing

I'm blogging and watching the Green Day DVD, "Bullet in a Bible", and at ten I'm going to the Yard House for happy hour with some friends from work. Now guess what I SHOULD be doing.....

That's right, I should be working on my essay, but do I want to do that? No. Why? Because I need help from a tutor anyway, I'll get my thoughts sorted out, and then I'll work with her. So no rush.

Thursday, October 19, 2006

Another freewrite

I'm sitting in a coffee shop right now, typing away on my mom's laptop in the hopes that I can get something on paper to work with on my essay. I only need one more source and one more quote....I think. Yeah, that's right. Anyway, I want to write something.....junkfood. That's what I want to read now, too. Just some junkfood reading, no highclass fiction. Anyway, I might work on an FC post, but I won't post anything there until I have at least five posts ready. That way we have a few items ready to go and you get to read some stories by me a couple weeks in a row.

Here goes the junkfood:

Hi, my name is Pierre. I was born in Montreal, but I live in Denver, CO. You might be thinking to yourself, "Well, I know your name, but who are you?" Well, that's a good question. Who are any of us, really? But I'm sure you don't really care, phillosophically speaking. I am a hitman. "Really," you think. "That seems a little cliche, especially considering the person writing this story." Well, it's the truth, and you can take any preconceived notions about how this is going to turn out and place them in a location to be disclosed at a later date.

I live in Denver because it's beautiful here, and I've been shadowing my current target for the last two years.

"Who is he?" you ask.

Well, what makes you think it's a "he"? It's not nice to assume. Besides, if I told you his name (go ahead and grin, it is a man) you'd be able to tell the cops who killed him. I can see him from where I sit, though. He's sitting on a couch in a local coffee shop, listening to music, I think. He has books spread out around him, but he isn't really looking through any of the. I'm sure you and I both think he's taking a break from studying.

Can you see him? He has short hair, a little scruffy. He thinks it's fassionable, but the blue jeans and tee shirt contradict that statement. His glasses have a simmilarly fassionable look to them, almost as if he belongs in nice suit. He should eat more, too.

Why do you care about where we are? Leave it alone, I can't tell you.

He's typing away on a laptop, probably for a class. I wonder if he know's I'm watching him.

No, I'm not going to kill him yet, there's too many people in here.

Oh, he's getting up. He's walking over to the counter, ordering a drink. Going to smoke while your drink is being made? Bad move. I pack up my things, step outside, I introduce myself and shake his hand. He doesn't know that I just poisoned him with a needle in my palm!

It won't be long now, he'll go back inside, get his drink, sit back down to type some more, but by the time he

Did I just stop?

No....I just forgot something. I didn't take my notebook to school today, and I was planning on working with the tutor at the writing center. Oh well. I need to do a little bit more research and I need to organize my thoughts. I'll be able to do it next week some time. I'll get a great deal done in the next couple of weeks, so don't expect many posts from me. (Not that you do, anyway).

Tuesday, October 17, 2006

And the Beat Goes On

Studying at Auraria was a total success. I only need two more quotes and one more source, then I simply have to write the essay. That is a HUGE praise Jesus.

On a heavier note, my dad woke up this morning with a terrible pain in his side. They (my parents and little brother) were staying at a restarea for the night, but they were close enough to Russel Kansas to get him to a hospital. Turns out he had a kidney stone....OUCH!

He got ambulanced over to Hayz, where a surgeon removed the stone(s). So my family is staying at a hotel in Kansas tonight.

On a lighter note, it's snowing.....has been most of the day! Awesome....bout time! I love the snow.

Watching High Fidelity now......on of my favorite movies EVER!

I should be finishing my rrj for intro to lit, but I don't feel like it. I studied most of the day, and I'm just completely worn out. Besides, I'll study tomorrow.

I think next semester I'm going to take my classes a bit lighter so I can work on writing too. I don't even want to take most of the required classes for the AA, not to mention the BA. I just want to write, but I need the education (not the degree) if I want to be a professional writer. The degree wouldn't hurt my job options.

Back to my life.

Monday, October 16, 2006

ON and on and on I go

I will be heading down-town to the Auraria (sp?) Campus to use their library tomorrow. The library at the school I'm attending at the moment is just too small for all of the research I need to do, and I'm hoping one of the librarians will be able to help me learn how to do all of that research. I never learned how to write a research essay. (yikes). I really want to do well in this class, but if I can't come up with anything, I'll retake the class after I know what I'm doing. I'd hate to drop it, but that's a last-ditch effort to avoid a low GPA. I'm not worried.....I still have a month to finish the essay, and I have ideas and a couple of sources.

On to other things.

Thursday, October 12, 2006

Wu huh?

So, I'm supposed to be excited about writing, and I AM excited, but I just can't get with it.....writing. I feel sooo........um.....I dunno. I just want....someone to talk to? No, that's not it, someone to talk with. I want to have conversations with people. I went to the coffee shop where Steve works today, and that was fun. I'm enjoying my homework, too. I'm really excited about going to a college library for my research project, too.

So....conversations. I want to talk with people. "Bible study" tonight was kinda boring. Nobody showed up so we sat around and watched TV. Instead of doing something fun, like playing a board game or going out somewhere. I shoulda said something, but they opened the beers before I had the chance.

So, maybe that's why I want to "date" someone. But I don't want to date anyone. I just want to hang out with a bunch of my friends and talk about God. That's what I really want. :P