I've found that, while a need for a paycheck can be a great motivator to sit down and write, desperation makes that writing just awful. My current job situation is tense, and the long-term future is in question. As a result, I'm that much more motivated to work toward publication so that I can do that full time. But last night, when I found out about my job, I almost turned desperate.
Today it didn't come out in my writing (I made a lot of progress on my editing and I didn't ruin anything), but I also feel stuck. I know getting published is a long, time-consuming process, and when I'm done with these edits, it will still be at least a year before I'm published, no matter what route I take to get there. I know I can't rush this because that also creates bad writing. I also need to finish this book before I jump into another one (which I'm eager and excited for!). I just wish I had more time. I wish I wasn't so tired when I'm SUPPOSED to get up at 5am. And I wish I didn't feel so desperate today.
I don't know how desperation makes other writers write, and I'm sure plenty of successful authors got that big break because they became desperate and made some great choices that worked out well for them. For me, it just becomes a distraction.
Note: I never want this blog to be a whiny, woe-is-me, depressing blog. But I also need to be honest. Life is great! Today I just don't feel %100.